created noble 03/31/2011
The other day I was talking with a friend who is in recovery from drug addiction. In the course of the conversation, he mentioned all kinds of things that had happened to his family and friends, like his sister getting pushed out of a window to her death, and his friends being shot in drug-related skirmishes. And I thought, so many people don't even know who they really are. Baha'u'llah tells us that each and every one of us was created noble. What if we all got that as a fact of life? Really got it? What would we do with our lives if we were truly conscious of our innate nobility? How would your life be different if you got that about yourself? Through his recovery process and his study of the Baha'i Faith, my friend is gradually coming to know who he really is and what he is capable of in this life. My prayer and my work is for more and more people in the world to see this in themselves and act on it. How are you working to help others to see their own nobility and their capacity? ~ Here's a song sketch that came out of these ruminations. amnesia i found my sister in an old apartment lying on the floor beaten to the core i said sister, do you remember me? do you even remember you? don't you know you're the daughter of a king? why are you here? are you listening? you're the daughter of a king. i found my brother in an old apartment brandishing his fist how did it come to this? i said brother, do you remember me? do you even remember you? don't you know your father is a king? why are you here? are you listening? your father is a king. beloved sister, beloved brother, here's a message from our father it says, "noble have I created thee noble have I created thee ...yet thou has abased thyself." He wants you to "rise then unto that for which thou wast created." you don't even know who you are you were created noble you've got to know who you are you are noble, noble a princess would never put up with this a prince would never raise his fist you've got amnesia you're noble, noble 5 Comments song in process stage 2 02/21/2011
jotting down a few more ideas for this song - will still need reworking, particularly for meter my past came knocking with a ridiculous joke oh, God if You're laughing with me i should be laughing too God, why are you taunting me? God, are you mocking me? Rumi says, "Don't grieve. Anything you lose comes round In another form." i wish i knew what that form could be. that's the maddening part for me. oh, God if You're laughing with me i should be laughing too if in every test there's a gift i can't wait to unwrap this what on earth could it be? don't keep it veiled to me until then it's let go and love let go and love let go...and love nothing else to do but let go and love oh God, if You're laughing with me let me laugh with You desire is a fire desire is a fire let me sink in that deep healing sleep oh come, my Beloved, and hold me song in progress: "let go and love" 02/19/2011
i lost the melody & the musical feel when i went downstairs to get a pen and got distracted. so it doesn't make sense musically at this point. but this is what i came up with as a start. will need serious re-working. my past came knocking with a ridiculous joke oh, God if You're laughing with me i should be laughing too they say in every test there's a gift i can't wait to unwrap this one what on earth could it be? this birthday has been a long time coming until then it's let go and love let go and love let go...and love nothing else to do but let go and love oh God, if You're laughing with me let me laugh with You desire is a fire desire is a fire let me sink in that deep healing sleep oh come, my Beloved, and hold me I will be playing at a dessert, poetry, and music night at a home in DC. Thinking about playing some of my new originals! Contact me for more information. softness can be strength 09/26/2009
new poem/potential song--still more on the theme of tests and difficulties, this time with a focus on the rewards... softness can be strength tear out the scars make room for clean structure with integrity soft strength in clarity tear out my heart re-weave veins and arteries built all new soft strength with receptivity i don't know i don't know beautiful mantra i don't know i don't know open to Your way loving being torn to pieces loving Your gentle hands molding me again from clay of love (scoop me out and fill me with) pure love make me new pure love make me You (it's the pain of birth of) pure love made anew pure love made from You pure love make me new pure love make me You making room for more joy 09/13/2009
My friend and fellow musician Elika Mahony visited my site the other day and pointed out that I haven't blogged in a while. One reason is that recently I have been going through some mental/emotional/spiritual tests, and I didn't particularly want to broadcast my struggles to the world. Now that I'm on the other side of this process (whew!), I thought I would try to share some of the fruits. I recently met a lovely cellist named Jesse (that's a whole other beautiful story) who has as her email signature, "The deeper that sorrow carves into your being the more joy you can contain. Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter's oven?” ~ Khalil Gibran I think this quote captures the essence of my recent experience, and I am grateful to have gone through this difficult time, as it stretched my heart to ultimately make room for more joy, peace, and certitude. I wrote a song during the rough period in an effort to release some of the pain. I didn't finish it at the time, but tonight I filled in what was missing. Despite the pain expressed here, I wanted to end the song with a note of hope, so I decided to sing one of my favorite prayers over the chorus at the end. The prayer is by `Abdu'l-Bahá, and the words are: O God! Refresh and gladden my spirit. Purify my heart. Illumine my powers. I lay all my affairs in Thy hand. Thou art my Guide and my Refuge. I will no longer be sorrowful and grieved; I will be a happy and joyful being. O God! I will no longer be full of anxiety, nor will I let trouble harass me. I will not dwell on the unpleasant things of life. O God! Thou art more friend to me than I am to myself. I dedicate myself to Thee, O Lord. ...and here are the lyrics to the song: Freedom of Choice my heart is burning holes in my chest my mind is churning over this test i wish i could fast forward to when this will all be gone take the pain i'll take the blame take my heart break me apart take my soul just make it go away i can't go on [chorus] God don't make me choose 'cause either way, I'm sure to lose my heart is breaking in anticipation with undulating reverberation shaking, making me close in, to stop the din i give in i give in i give in i give in take me [chorus] [chorus with Refresh & Gladden overlaid] | Welcome!Stop by. Have a listen. Browse around.
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