gleam 03/06/2010
take me to the pressure wash these daily tears just aren't enough to clean the crud off my heart put me thru some strong chemicals and white hot heat scrub & scrape me shine & buff me till I glow oh. be careful though that you don't scratch or nick my gleam wear gloves and use a microfiber chamois cloth and don't drop me i might shatter Snoem 02/09/2010
 If I sit still enough, I can hear you singing. I didn't hear you on the day it snowed -- the world quiet, the din muffling your sound. It now seems grey like the slush on my unplowed street. Oh, to live the purity of newly fallen snow!  But snow is cold. No, give me your fire and burn the slush out of my heart, steaming love through the world like hot chocolate for all men. If I sit still enough, I can hear you singing -- calling me, calling me. Shhh...quiet heart. Listen. Fire, burn it all away. Leave only your voice. I will be playing at a dessert, poetry, and music night at a home in DC. Thinking about playing some of my new originals! Contact me for more information. softness can be strength 09/26/2009
new poem/potential song--still more on the theme of tests and difficulties, this time with a focus on the rewards... softness can be strength tear out the scars make room for clean structure with integrity soft strength in clarity tear out my heart re-weave veins and arteries built all new soft strength with receptivity i don't know i don't know beautiful mantra i don't know i don't know open to Your way loving being torn to pieces loving Your gentle hands molding me again from clay of love (scoop me out and fill me with) pure love make me new pure love make me You (it's the pain of birth of) pure love made anew pure love made from You pure love make me new pure love make me You making room for more joy 09/13/2009
My friend and fellow musician Elika Mahony visited my site the other day and pointed out that I haven't blogged in a while. One reason is that recently I have been going through some mental/emotional/spiritual tests, and I didn't particularly want to broadcast my struggles to the world. Now that I'm on the other side of this process (whew!), I thought I would try to share some of the fruits. I recently met a lovely cellist named Jesse (that's a whole other beautiful story) who has as her email signature, "The deeper that sorrow carves into your being the more joy you can contain. Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter's oven?” ~ Khalil Gibran I think this quote captures the essence of my recent experience, and I am grateful to have gone through this difficult time, as it stretched my heart to ultimately make room for more joy, peace, and certitude. I wrote a song during the rough period in an effort to release some of the pain. I didn't finish it at the time, but tonight I filled in what was missing. Despite the pain expressed here, I wanted to end the song with a note of hope, so I decided to sing one of my favorite prayers over the chorus at the end. The prayer is by `Abdu'l-Bahá, and the words are: O God! Refresh and gladden my spirit. Purify my heart. Illumine my powers. I lay all my affairs in Thy hand. Thou art my Guide and my Refuge. I will no longer be sorrowful and grieved; I will be a happy and joyful being. O God! I will no longer be full of anxiety, nor will I let trouble harass me. I will not dwell on the unpleasant things of life. O God! Thou art more friend to me than I am to myself. I dedicate myself to Thee, O Lord. ...and here are the lyrics to the song: Freedom of Choice my heart is burning holes in my chest my mind is churning over this test i wish i could fast forward to when this will all be gone take the pain i'll take the blame take my heart break me apart take my soul just make it go away i can't go on [chorus] God don't make me choose 'cause either way, I'm sure to lose my heart is breaking in anticipation with undulating reverberation shaking, making me close in, to stop the din i give in i give in i give in i give in take me [chorus] [chorus with Refresh & Gladden overlaid] | Welcome!Stop by. Have a listen. Browse around.
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